January 2010
I really don't want to end this year arguing with...
but idk. it’s going to probably.
fuck.
I’ma end this argument.
I hate this -.-”
December 2009
I've learned that my parents are such badasses
my dad is so humble about life, what he’s accomplished.
my mom is the same way.
I didn’t realize this until I sat down and talk to them.
This is my new years resloution, spend my time with my parents, because they deserve all the time, because the things they have done for me.
I finally figured everything out !
after long days of feeling like nothing could ever be figured out, I finally did, and I’m so happy, but then I’m scared.
I’m mixed feelings.
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change.
The new year is a’coming.
and boy am I so excited, I need this, more then anything.
why the eff do I feel so impatient?
like seriously, I’m in a bad mood/sad mood/crappy feeling mode.
WTF D:
I have learned so much over the past few years and...
and the best lesson was, that life goes on.
and it stops for no one.
and I kinda like that idea.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
I should be happy. But I’m not.
fuck.
I really need an escape
find me one?
I'm pretty much in a sad mood, you know those...
Yeah, fuck you hormones.
and on top of you hormones, my boyfriend isn’t talking to me till tomorrow.
My night is fucked, like soooo fucked up.
:( I feel like crying, oh man, I need alex. he’ll cheer me up.
Interesting Tricks of the Body
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1. If your throat tickles, scratch your ear. When you were 9, playing your armpit was a cool trick. Now, as an adult, you can still appreciate a good body-based feat, but you’re more discriminating. Take that tickle in your throat; it’s not worth gagging over. Here’s a better way to scratch your itch: “When the nerves in...
I have no idea what to blog about right now
so I’m blogging about blogging.
Its a really good way to put your opinion out there.
Makes me feel like I have a voice somewhere.
Good way to meet people (sorta lol)
Well there’s more reasons, but everyone has their own.
and I for one have more but I’m too sleepy to think of more :P
I really really really really need
to stop listening to love music,
I miss my boyfriend enough ):
and love music makes it worse.
I really miss him now. :(
fuck you, love music !
I think the best kind of hero doesn't necessarily...
but, I think a hero is, a person who says something inspirational, but you use those words to help someone else, that’s a hero to me.
Like the person at target, or my grandma, people like them, yeah the defiantly inspire me.
and soo I told my friend about the person holding...
she laughed at me and said “wow that homeless guy, inspired you! wtf..”
I’m sad, that guy is so inspirational, why can’t people appreciate his words of wisdom, and they may have not been too many words, but those 4 words, meant so much to me.
I think my friend is utterly stupid.
Quote of the day
“DUDE, My ghetto car is breaking apart !”
-my sister.
hahaha :P
sooo I saw a homeless guy. or at least I thought...
he was standing on the corner of target and he had a sign saying:
“THIS COULD BE YOU”
So, I turned to my sister while she was driving and said:
“That guy is an inspiration, he’s righteous!”
and that made my day good, he made me think, maybe the path I’m going on is changeable.
Yeah, he inspired me. :)
so on my way to my sister's aparment
and I can’t help but laugh at funny signs people put up.
for example, it said.. “BUY NUTS, SOME SALTY NUTS.”
yeah yeah immature, I know, but a immature moment is good once in a while :P
Today
I’m going to my sister’s aparment.
I FINALLY GET TO GET AWAY FROM MY PARENTS!
hell yeah, fuck yes!!
downside is, it’s only for the night, but oh well, I’m a fucking happy camper!
WHOOOT!!!!
Long distance relationships.
holy shit.
could people for once, not FUCKING focus on the distance, and more about why that specific person loves the other!
shit, fuck.
Ugh, I’m tired of being criticized that a long distance relationship is stupid, and worthless.
well you know what
FUCK YOU!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR LIFE! I FUCKING HATE YOU SAYING SHIT BEHIND MY BACK! AND YOU KNOW WHAT!? YOU WILL MEET YOUR...
I grab my collar when I laugh because
I’m so fucking scared that my shirt/or sweater will choke me to death, while I’m having a blast.
:P
People.
I’m tired of having company..
I mean its cool having people (like fwends) over..
but when you have people like 40ish at yo’ place for a few nights..
you tend to get a little irrked..
hmmmm.
maybe I am destined to be the crazy old cat lady :P
I like cats..
hahaha.
snow.
snow is cool, yeah yeah.
but uhm
not when it melts in your undies D:
haha :P
fuck.
I miss him so much ):
I really really do.
I hate not talking to him, it makes me feel impatient.
:\
I wanna talk to him so badly.
:/ fuck.
ahhhhhhhhhhh.
I REALLY want the holidays to end.
I want to be able to go to a store without seeing santa in EVERY single isle.
and its ironic, they put christmas stuff, right after halloween, I mean does Thanksgiving not exist? hmmm. ohh’well. :P
Dear Santa,
All I ask is for you to give me a reasonable working car, with a full tank of gas. A car with insurance. So I can drive away from here, and go to L.A. so I can be with my boyfriend :D
That’s all I ever wanted form you man.
Noting else, pshh. I wouldn’t ask for something like a pony…. pshh….
P.S. I really do want a pony named curtis :)
uhhhh.
well, my sister’s is gonna go out for the night.
so, I’m here at the house, with the ‘rentals.
I think I’ma turn on the CSI: Criminal Intent. Just cause I can’t go rent movies :\
[fuckkkkkkkkkkk.]
anyways.
I think I might go crash at my aunt’s house, but then again, being stuck with 4 kids, and 2 of them are biters…… I’m not so for the...
sooooooooooo
I don’t like holidays.
but I love the food :D
Ironic?
when we’re little kids, we wish we can be grown up, but when we’re older we want to be little again.
ohh yeahh, exactly what’s going on with me.
I wish I was little, and I didn’t know what love was, the only love I knew was from my parents. where the playground was disneyland. and mcd’s hamburgers seemed huge. when a dollar was a million bucks.
I wish boys still...
Perscription drugs without the RX.
I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really need to get over feeling so bummed out.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
why is it so tough?
I definitely need a big hug, a laugh from alex, and a I love you from cristian. :)
perfect RX drug without the perscription :P
Reasons why I don't like holidays;
I don’t like christmas.
too much family time; I already see you during the year. don’t get excited.
I don’t like my hometown; it’s bunch of liars and drama queens and kings (with the exception of cool kids)
I don’t like most of my family; they treat me like a dumbass.
Parents: they treat me like I’m 4 years old.
Space: I really like being independent,...
help?
I’m so confused.
I really like my boyfriend, I do.
But idk things aren’t feeling the same, and I’m kinda edgy about it.
he’s been “re-connecting” with past friends, no guys, Girls.
and That really bothers me, I want to tell him, that everytime he metions one of his best friends, it makes me feel like I’m not good enough, that no matter how hard I try...
Listen Being as Gee as me...
is sometimes some tough shit.
hahaha.
XD
hmm, today?
I’m going to my orthodontist app. :D
Talk about the exact date I get mah grill on :P
and then afterwards, is hanging out with Jezzi :D
I’m not sure what shanagogins we will get ourselves into but ohh’well, surprise surprise :D
soo yeahh. I’m pretty much in a great mood.
even though I miss talking my buddie alex ): I’ll talk to him lateah. he makes me happy...
Parents.
Have become more annoying. >:\
I’m tired of my parents, I cannot wait till I turn 18.
After I turn 18, I’ma bounce like big titties.
shit, I’m done!
I wanna have independence, I LOVE being away from them.
Ohhhh man! I can’t wait, if UCB summer program accepts me, I can’t wait to leave for 6 weeks. 6 motha effing weeks of being alone!!!!
Plus, I...
hmm.
IDRGAF anymore.
I just don’t…
..I know I still do, and it hurts to know I’m weak :\
Life;
has seem to gotten a bit better.
I hope the drama is all gone by today.
I figured out I can’t trust the people who have been with me for years.
and It hurts, but ohh’well fuck it, it’s life.
I just know that the person who told my bf shit is a dirty whore.
and my “best friend” is nothing but a liar.
soo yeah, a lotta things that I figured out.
But the best one...
I had
a pretty good day :]
until it was ruined by a stupid jerk.
thanks asshole.
Yee.
I feel like rappin’
I wish I was gangstaa as tu-pac :(
hahaha. :D
10 things your parents never told you about...
1. everyone is a resource, steal knowledge whenever possible. 2. manipulation is not only an art form but an essential and invaluable life skill. practice helps you understand the human perspective. 3. experience as much as possible. you never know if you’ll like a finger in your ass until you try. 4. never finish your food. cleaning your plate is how your parents programmed you into...
I'm done.
I’m done feeling sad.
I’m tired of always wondering; is this it?
I hate feeling hopeless.
ayyyeeee ;]
ohhh man;
I actually had FUN at school today.
Yesenia made me laugh my fucking ass off like half the day.
man oh man, she’s crazy :D
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I have the worst feeling ever.
and its starting to creep me out :\